Wow am I suppose to be blogging here, too?!?
I have wordpress - follow Save the Teens there as well as The Shore Grief Center.
http://cczahnow.wordpress.com
http://theshoregriefcenter.wordpress.com
Friday, July 4, 2014
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Found some loose photos of Cameron today and thought I better scan them while I had them handy. Cameron was such a sweet kid as the photo shows. This was taken in Smithfield somewhere, or at least we were living in Smithfield at the time. We enjoyed our time in little Smithfield. We lived just a block or two away from the downtown area so we would walk to the theater to see movies or to the fantastic deli that was close by.
I remember Halloween in Smithfield. It was perfect. Kids were out in their costumes prowling the neighborhood. There were sidewalks everywhere so it was very safe. People were so friendly there.
When we moved to Flower Mound, TX, Halloween was great there as well. The first year we were there, I urged Cameron to hit the neighborhood and go trick or treating. He did and I went along as he was 12 years old then and we were still new to the neighborhood. We met a mom and son who lived down the street while trick or treating and we talked him into going with us. He had not planned on it but his mom found a mask for him and off we went. A friendship was made. The two boys were really very different but they found they could play video games together - for hours!
I still miss my Cameron enormously. So many little things remind me that he is no longer here to share my experiences. I hate that the most. (Cameron suicided in 2005 - he was 18) I tend to remember his criticizing what I would choose to wear when I'm out shopping now. So my son was actually my friend as well who was honest with me - most of the time. Once meth became his "friend" all that was out the window. I still thank him for the 18 years he was in my life.
I remember Halloween in Smithfield. It was perfect. Kids were out in their costumes prowling the neighborhood. There were sidewalks everywhere so it was very safe. People were so friendly there.
When we moved to Flower Mound, TX, Halloween was great there as well. The first year we were there, I urged Cameron to hit the neighborhood and go trick or treating. He did and I went along as he was 12 years old then and we were still new to the neighborhood. We met a mom and son who lived down the street while trick or treating and we talked him into going with us. He had not planned on it but his mom found a mask for him and off we went. A friendship was made. The two boys were really very different but they found they could play video games together - for hours!
I still miss my Cameron enormously. So many little things remind me that he is no longer here to share my experiences. I hate that the most. (Cameron suicided in 2005 - he was 18) I tend to remember his criticizing what I would choose to wear when I'm out shopping now. So my son was actually my friend as well who was honest with me - most of the time. Once meth became his "friend" all that was out the window. I still thank him for the 18 years he was in my life.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
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Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Welcome to me!
Hello fellow blogger,
I'm starting off slowly since I always feel guilty about writing something when I should be editing my book and getting it off to an agent or publisher.
The book is tentatively title: "Tormented Souls: Saving Teens from Suicide" thus this blog. I lost my 18 year old son on August 11, 2005. Cameron suffered from depression and substance abuse compounded from losing his birth dad when he was 15. I tried to save him from himself but I just was not able to.
After his death, I began researching like crazy. I had to know more about suicide, depression, bipolar disorder, drug abuse (methamphetamine in particular), and anti-depressants. It occurred to me since I had done all this research that I could easily turn it into a non-fiction book but decided to add in a memoir along the way about our life with Cameron during those last three tormenting years of his life. I'm not sure agents care about mixing the two but my goal is to make mentors of teens aware of drug abuse and depression in a teen. Also exactly where to go for help. Not just say 'get help.' That is not helpful when your teen is doing drugs - you can't think straight. You don't know what to do!
So that's my purpose in life right now - get my book out there and then hit the speaking trail to save more teens. I truly don't feel like they want to die, they just want out of their misery and suicide is one way to do so.
You can help me in my mission by learning more about similar topics and sharing them with parents of teens, church clergy that mentor teens, teachers that mentor teens, parents of teens that have teens visit at their home. If you're in contact with a teen, then you can very well be a mentor and make a difference - perhaps in saving a life!
Signing off for today. Let me know what you think of my first entry here in Blogger land.
ccz
I'm starting off slowly since I always feel guilty about writing something when I should be editing my book and getting it off to an agent or publisher.
The book is tentatively title: "Tormented Souls: Saving Teens from Suicide" thus this blog. I lost my 18 year old son on August 11, 2005. Cameron suffered from depression and substance abuse compounded from losing his birth dad when he was 15. I tried to save him from himself but I just was not able to.
After his death, I began researching like crazy. I had to know more about suicide, depression, bipolar disorder, drug abuse (methamphetamine in particular), and anti-depressants. It occurred to me since I had done all this research that I could easily turn it into a non-fiction book but decided to add in a memoir along the way about our life with Cameron during those last three tormenting years of his life. I'm not sure agents care about mixing the two but my goal is to make mentors of teens aware of drug abuse and depression in a teen. Also exactly where to go for help. Not just say 'get help.' That is not helpful when your teen is doing drugs - you can't think straight. You don't know what to do!
So that's my purpose in life right now - get my book out there and then hit the speaking trail to save more teens. I truly don't feel like they want to die, they just want out of their misery and suicide is one way to do so.
You can help me in my mission by learning more about similar topics and sharing them with parents of teens, church clergy that mentor teens, teachers that mentor teens, parents of teens that have teens visit at their home. If you're in contact with a teen, then you can very well be a mentor and make a difference - perhaps in saving a life!
Signing off for today. Let me know what you think of my first entry here in Blogger land.
ccz
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